A new beginning or a beginning to the end?

Funny thing is how you can feel one way, one day, and then the next week or so something can alter or change your entire view. It is incredible how people are easily influenced and then when something terrible happens we take flight. Is it possible to maintain a successful long distance relationship? This is a question that I am posing to you and I hope to garner some interesting responses. When I embarked on this little experiment, I thought hands down that I would be able to prove my theory correct. I was thrown a loop when Lamaris responded to my email. Lamaris is everything that I had been looking for in a partner. Lamaris is intelligent, good looking, optimistic, a motivator and gainfully employed (LOL). I thought well I definitely am lucky to have something as wonderful as this just fall in my lap. This dream was true until we met. After meeting, it became a double edge sword. I hopelessly thought that this meeting combined with our daily contacts would solve all of my problems. I said to myself, you can handle this. This can work. Ironically, the lonely days and nights are becoming longer. The long phone calls and multiple emails are becoming mundane and repetitive. At night, I wake up and call him just to make sure that he answers the phone. This in some pathetic way feels like a little rainbow of security. Last night, I woke up with a bad dream and sadly, there were no arms to hold me close. I am now stuck with the question of whether I am really attracted to him or just the distance? Is the distance playing tricks with my mind? Is this a new beginning or a beginning to the end?